I am seriously pissed with the life that I am having now. Nothing seems to be getting right.
Just a minute ago, had a super bad quarrel with bro. I seriously don't understand, I don't know what's wrong with him, I don't know what's wrong with me. When did he become like this? Why did he become like this? Scolding vulgarities like this. Cursing tt I die. Cursing my parents die. I don't know why things turn out like this. What happened? What caused him to be like this? Why? I am crying deep inside me, cos it really hurts me deep inside. I have no idea what to do. I am at a loss.
Why are things so complicated. Just this morning, I was pissed enough. Signed up to help out for NYJC 2-day camp this coming thur and fri, and so was supposed to attend the 2 day-course yesterday and today. Army had this mobilisation thingie the whole day and so wasn't able to go yesterday. Told the person-in-charge, she said it was ok, but apparently today when I reported, I was told to leave. I was told to leave cos I didn't come in yesterday. Damn! I told the girl earlier, whom i duno who, cos i cleared my inbox and sent items this morning on my way back to nyjc. She said it was ok if i never go for the first day. And yet, when i happily reported today, I was told " You never come yesterday and so you have to leave..." wat the...? Ok. I have no black-and-white as to who the hell told me that it was ok for me to still go today. Bloody hell. I took the initiative to call Yvonne yesterday to ask her wat exactly they went through yesterday and even stayed up later last night to reflect on the stuff tt was needed for today. Afraid tt I wld oversleep, I set 2 alarms this morning. And yet, in front of so many people, I was told to leave. Hey, can you be more appreciative. I tried my best to come, and I even applied 2 days leave for this camp, and yet this is how i am treated. Whatever. I don't care anymore. I am not going to bother myself anymore.
I need a break. I need time alone. . .
Just a minute ago, had a super bad quarrel with bro. I seriously don't understand, I don't know what's wrong with him, I don't know what's wrong with me. When did he become like this? Why did he become like this? Scolding vulgarities like this. Cursing tt I die. Cursing my parents die. I don't know why things turn out like this. What happened? What caused him to be like this? Why? I am crying deep inside me, cos it really hurts me deep inside. I have no idea what to do. I am at a loss.
Why are things so complicated. Just this morning, I was pissed enough. Signed up to help out for NYJC 2-day camp this coming thur and fri, and so was supposed to attend the 2 day-course yesterday and today. Army had this mobilisation thingie the whole day and so wasn't able to go yesterday. Told the person-in-charge, she said it was ok, but apparently today when I reported, I was told to leave. I was told to leave cos I didn't come in yesterday. Damn! I told the girl earlier, whom i duno who, cos i cleared my inbox and sent items this morning on my way back to nyjc. She said it was ok if i never go for the first day. And yet, when i happily reported today, I was told " You never come yesterday and so you have to leave..." wat the...? Ok. I have no black-and-white as to who the hell told me that it was ok for me to still go today. Bloody hell. I took the initiative to call Yvonne yesterday to ask her wat exactly they went through yesterday and even stayed up later last night to reflect on the stuff tt was needed for today. Afraid tt I wld oversleep, I set 2 alarms this morning. And yet, in front of so many people, I was told to leave. Hey, can you be more appreciative. I tried my best to come, and I even applied 2 days leave for this camp, and yet this is how i am treated. Whatever. I don't care anymore. I am not going to bother myself anymore.
I need a break. I need time alone. . .
posted by yaodeful @ 11:45 AM
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